Had a frustrating day...
And an even more frosting night...
I awoke from my sleep feeling mentally and physically tired instead of refreshed.
But my memories of you and the us that we are gives me comfort and the strength to tackle another day.

...I opened my eyes, looked in the mirror...and saw someone that I had not seen in a long time. "Me"

Difficulties have a way a making us forget who we really are. Find that one thing that makes you...YOU, hold on to it for dear life and let it be your "Forget Me Not".

Lessons from my father:

When a MAN wants a woman he will pursue her and she will never have to wonder how he feels about her.

A Few Minutes Alone

All I needed were a few minutes alone.
Time to gather my thoughts
To spend time...with me.

A few minutes alone
To come to some understanding
To clear my mind
To make a conscience...decision.

A few minutes alone
To breathe the clear air that returns...
To hear the birds that sing...
To listen to the song in my heart that only comes alive when you're not around

A few minutes alone
To zero in,
On this need that is inside me
Anxiously waiting to come out.

The need...
To be happy
To be needed
To be loved
To be desired
To be cherished

All I needed were a few minutes alone

...and with that time alone, I have made my decision.

Mom's Sick Day

MOM’S SICK DAY "The rantings of an irritated Mom" (11/24/11)

It’s official, Mom is having a sick day. After all these years of being a Mother and a wife, it still amazes me how everyone reacts when Mom gets sick. It’s like the house just shuts down. Nobody’s cooking or cleaning, the baby may or may not eat, heaven forbid if MOM needs something to eat. And if you are lucky enough to get a plate of food you're not going to have anything healthy. These last couple of days, I’ve had frozen waffles, sausage , hash browns and eggs, chicken noodle soup and I’ve eaten the hell out of a bag of plain tortilla chips, orange juice, ice tea and water.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m always grateful for all that is given and done for me but I tell you what, I’ve got to hurry up and get myself back together. The lack of food and ugly attitudes are getting on my nerves.

Can you believe, that while I’m limping around the house in pain that the “Diva” would walk past me like she has got the biggest attitude in the world. I say “Good Morning”. Mind you, I haven’t seen this chick since I left out the door last night going to the ER. She just stomps passed me again while I’m sitting on the couch, like I’m not even there. Well, since I know that sometimes I don’t speak loud enough for people to hear even though I am a natural loud talker, I extended my greetings to her again. This time I remembered to address her with the proper title…you know how it is…”Good Morning Diva!” I say to her again and this time she replies, not with a return good morning but with an, “Oh, I didn’t see you over there”.

Ooooo weeee that little girl was so nasty I almost forgot that I was sick and just stood up and cracked her one. She’s been pacing back and forth across the living room, in front of me for the last few minutes and she doesn’t SEE me? Yeah whatever….. I’m assuming that she had an attitude because she didn’t want to leave for school early. But, since she wasn’t in one of her most expressive moods, I didn’t get any clarity.

To be honest…I really didn’t care. The Diva is always on some emotional roller coaster. She flip flops like a fish out of water more often than not. Some days I look at her and ask myself, “was I that bad as a teenager”?

So anyway, after the older children left with my husband. My middle school son a.k.a “The Social Butterfly” makes me a cup of iced tea, and helps me get comfortable before he leaves for school. Before he walks out the door he tells me “Mom, when you get sick, it’s just doesn’t seem right…the house is just not right.

That’s the closet show of sympathy that I’ve gotten from anyone in the house.

The husband stares at me when he doesn't think I’m looking as if he’s seriously confused. My oldest was up when I got in from the ER and when I told him what was wrong he’s got a yeah whatever attitude. Not, do you need anything, let me help you get up the stairs or nothing. Wow, these people really know how to make you feel even more like crap when you’re already down. Kick the dog when its down, why don’t you?

I guess if I’m not cooking, cleaning, driving and catering to everyone else’s needs then I’m the enemy. Deep down I know that that’s not how they feel but it sure seems like it sometimes.

Today, I’ve decided that I do not want to be sick anymore. I’m determined to get back up and mobile. I’ve dragged myself out of the bed and gotten dressed to pick up my youngest from Pre-k. It would have been nice to actually be able to lay down and let my body heal itself but the hubby is military and for all my military wives…you KNOW how it is. He said that he would try to take a break and go get him so I wouldn’t have to leave. But come on ladies, this is the army, he’s not my man, he’s the army’s man. When they say he can go, then he can go. I can’t wait on that. So I guess I’m going to take advantage of the fact that I have $10 in my wallet and get Mr. Pre-K and myself something to eat so I will not have to worry about the two of us eating. I'm not worried about those attitudinal folks who can cook and fend for themselves. If I had enough energy, I’d venture over to the Chinese food place, at least then I could get some kind of vegetable in my system.

Good Lord…is all I can say..

The REAL Superwoman is at it again.

One of these days I’m going to catch up with that woman flying around her undies and cape who takes all of the credit and shake her up a bit, because she is definitly not superwoman.

...truer words were never spoken.

...After the Rain

With the ending of every "Storm" is a chance for a new beginning.

Embrace the sun and the new light it brings, it shines for you.

Be not ashamed to tell your story. It is from the errors and successes of our past that our futures are determined. We live, learn and move on.

Footprints in the sand...

An evening stroll along the beach.

I love the way the wind moves my dress and caresses my legs like an unseen lover.

...I woke up this morning, opened the curtains and smiled...hello sunshine!!! "I love sun-kisses in the morning."

A relationship is like a plant, it must be watered and fertilized or it will wither and die.

Take time to nurture your relationship, once the life has gone out of it, there's nothing in this world that will bring it back.

I think ALL "MOMS" have a little super secret...

...and still I rise. Out of the depths of despair I rise with a free and open heart knowing I have given all that I had to give. With a clear understanding that what I had to offer was not enough for you. Time to move on...

The rain is pounding on my bedroom window like a jilted lover desperate to come in.

...I love a good rain storm.

...Through all the madness I almost forgot who I was. Then a bird landed on my shoulder and wispered in my ear...and I remembered.