I think ALL "MOMS" have a little super secret...

...and still I rise. Out of the depths of despair I rise with a free and open heart knowing I have given all that I had to give. With a clear understanding that what I had to offer was not enough for you. Time to move on...

The rain is pounding on my bedroom window like a jilted lover desperate to come in.

...I love a good rain storm.

...Through all the madness I almost forgot who I was. Then a bird landed on my shoulder and wispered in my ear...and I remembered.

Insomnia

Lately I've been suffering from Insomnia.
So I went to the doctor to solve my problem.

He looked me up and down, And turned me all around

And said, "Follow my instructions and this problem will bother you no longer."

So confused was I...with his actions.

But in my sleep deprived stated, I just needed some satisfaction.

As I lay there in bed, with no thought of sleep in my head,

I reached in my purse to grab my instructions.

And it said:

Should you wake and cannot sleep in your bed.

Put something nice on...my favorite color is red.

From the office go three lights down,

Turn right, I'm in the third house that's brown.

I'm sleeping  GOOOOOD since I started seeing this doctor.

To Him:

I wonder…

If you noticed the way I blush when you're around
How I always stumble on my words...when you're around
Damn...I always lose my cool...when you're around

How can I...
Let you know how I feel without seeming… easy
Without being to...forward
Without negatively crossing the borders that define us as...just friends

I wish...

You could read my mind and see my thoughts
That you could see the longing in the back of my eyes
That I could show you the WE that we COULD be if we weren't just friends

Maybe…

One day I'll be brave enough to show you what's in my heart
One day I'll be brave enough to let you look directly into my eyes
One day I'll be brave enough to tell you just how long I've been in love with you

Sincerely,

Me...

He Held Me...

It started out as such a beautiful day until the dark clouds came
It was a storm like no other storm
I was in a strange place and I was all alone
I was scared, I was lost....I was tired

As The tornado sirens blared

And The thunder roared
The rain threatened to drown to drown me and
I wondered how could I go on.

Just as my light began to dim I felt his arms around me

And He held me

When the lights when off and I couldn't see him

He saw me

When I reached out my hands in the dark and couldn't find him

He found me

And He held me...
And He held me...
And He held me...

Standing strong against the storm, never bending in the wind....

He held me...

Shielding me from the danger that was myself

He held me...

Wrapped in the strength of his arms, in the calmness of his spirit, in the warmth of his embrace

I felt safe...because He held me

I'm still here...

Because He held me